12.5/100th life

bout time..

2011-02-16T13:57:00.000-08:00

sup yall. I figured it was about time i put up a real post. i even have pictures!! so life as we know it has been rough but.. fun.. I like it rough. cathrine and i are living in the house on 8000 w again. we decided that living with my parents was worse than living with hers... for now. either way. I will only be living in utah for 13 more days. i am leaving for boot camp on the 28th of this month. i finally get to quit comcast on the 24th.. what a glorious day that will be.i plann to deliver goodbye cards to the people that i liked. and "F*** YOU" cards to the people i didnt like so much. :D so effing excited!
on to other news. I have lost 35 pounds in the last 9 months. i have included evidence.. its only of my face though so its not that impressive.
Miles is turning 9 months on friday. he has gained 12 pounds in 9 months.. hes a little tubber its cute, and no .. he doesnt have any hair... get over it.
ok. so.. enough time waisted lets get to the pictures!!

THis is the before

and this is the after... can you tell? i know its hard... but it has reflected in pant size.. niether of my suits fit at all anymore... i use that excuse to get out of church all the time.. and none of my jeans fit without a belt (and im on my last belt loop before i have to go get a smaller one :( )

and these are of the cutest thing you ever saw in your life..... my son miles.

ok.. this will likely be my last post before i go to basic training so.. be grateful and leave a comment. i will post pictures when i get back in May.. hopefully in time for beccas wedding and miles' birthday.

Ralph Waldo Emmerson

2010-11-30T19:39:00.000-08:00

No man can learn what he has not preparation for learning, however near to his eyes is the object. A chemist may tell his most precious secrets to a carpenter, and he shall be never the wiser, — the secrets he would not utter to a chemist for an estate. God screens us evermore from premature ideas. Our eyes are holden that we cannot see things that stare us in the face, until the hour arrives when the mind is ripened; then we behold them, and the time when we saw them not is like a dream.

Step one, part one

2010-11-23T04:12:00.000-08:00

The hotel. When the recruiter kept telling me we were going to the hotel ... My first impulse was to tell him I'm not that kind of girl. But when it comes to the government I find it best to just do what they say and not ask and question that would make you look stupid. I of course was not going for an overnighter witha slightly questionable recruiter. I found out that the hotel is where you go the night before meld so that they can make sure you eat and wake up on time before you go to have your privacy thoroughly Invaded by some army doctor. Myexperience was great. Though I ruining roommates was less then awesome. The room we got had a couch that had a hideawaybed and also had one king size bed. I quickly judge that my roommate was timid and nonconfrontational and I took the king size.. Poor kid. Can't let people walk all over you like that. I hope he makes it through today without crying. Nobody wants to see that.

redemption, step one

2010-11-22T14:09:00.000-08:00

In life we make mistakes, some of them big some of them small. tomorrow i hope to resolve one of my past mistakes, i once decided to join the navy, and then like a regular pansey i backed out. tomorrow i am going to MEPS (Millitary Entrance Processing Station)to make good on it. I am rejoining the navy (if they decide they still want me that is.) so here we go. hold your breath.

This I believe...

2010-08-08T10:27:00.000-07:00

There are too many people in this world from too many different backgrounds for one belief to work for everyone.
There are too many secrets.
Life is full of surprises, most of them are neither good or bad, not being bad is a good enough excuse for me to call them good.
You can only really respond to sadness or offence in two ways; you can be bitter or you can be better, the former will not make you happy.
The heart of life is good.
Not everything that is hard is worth the effort, but that doesn't mean we should always take the easy way.
Sometimes it is easier to believe what they tell you than it is to face your family and tell them you don't believe anymore.
Not everything beautiful is true.
Not everyone that is nice, is good.
Just because something isn't true, that doesn't mean you can't believe it.
Everything in this world denotes that there is a peaceful, and merciful Creator.
God wants only for us to be happy, he doesn't care how we make ourselves happy as long as we are not making anyone else unhappy, and we are doing everything we can to make his other children happy.
There are very few people in this world with bad intentions, most are simply trying to be happy the wrong way.
When cooking a pot-roast never take it directly from the cold fridge to the hot oven, it makes it tough. Let it warm up and relax a little and it will be more open to the flavors that you rub into it.

This, I believe.

Miles Lavon Morrey

2010-05-24T21:00:00.000-07:00

In case you have not heard... my expected little girl... is a little boy... and a super cute one. we named him after my two heroes, miles davis, and my dad. in his first week of life he has proven to be quite the impressionist... the obvious impression is joe.. (with all the whining and sleeping ) but some of his more convincing impressions are Popeye;

also Link from the Legend of Zelda

and my favorite, the alien from Indiana Jones And the Crystal Skull

one day he will make me famous, or at least rich.. or.. maybe just proud.. but at least rich enough to buy a keyboard with a space key that works

Photoshop CS5!!!!

2010-04-07T11:35:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG... im gonna pee my pants in anticipation of this program. in case any of you are nerdy enough to know that the new versiopn of photoshop is comming out on april 12th 2010; I congradulate you on being awesome, for everyone else. It's gonna be frickin awesome!!!! the thing is just packed full of awesome features like smart edge finders, new filters, and best of all... it's pretty

Be assured that when a torrent for it becomes available, there will definatly be some "sharing" going on.

Why animals will one day start the apocalypse

2010-03-22T07:44:00.000-07:00

You might think that its funny or cute or have some other perverted reason for wanting to put your beloved animal into a costume.

you dont understand apperently the fury, the rage, that is storing up inside the little tike. one day you will be sorry.

one day these animials will most certianly wage war against an unsuspecting public and all will be lost. the weapons of cats destructions are being built as we speak.

even now while you are reading this, fluffy is using your WiFi to network her doomsday device with others around the world.

I for one will not be decived, and when the animal uprising comes, I will be the first to turn against mankind,

All the tunafish and catnip in the world cant save us then.

The sign in the soup

2010-02-22T14:58:00.001-08:00

I have a small rant to post... you know like the kind I used to do all the time before I decided it best not to post my true feelings on my blog.
well, here goes;
why is it that when someone has a serious question of faith they are shunned. why is it that when someone really doesn't understand/ accept a certain piece of gospel they are treated like a bad person? its it that understanding of the gospel is something that one should be born with? or should have picked up in primary (brain washing) ? don't get me wrong I'm not bashing my own religion out of spite or hatred. I just don't think the %80 of the followers really know whats going on. they are just so afraid to admit that they don't get it or that they don't agree with it (especially in Utah). I for one am tired of hiding the things that I don't understand with blind faith. i still think that there is a lot of good to be found in my church and I still plan to go. I have great faith in many of the things that I have been taught. I also plan to find out how to understand the things that re causing my current crisis of faith. but I want the blogging world to know and perhaps join with me in my conviction that there are some questions that can no longer go unanswered, there are many things that I must first understand before any progression of my soul is possible. call me a heretic if you will but I don't think there is anything wrong with questioning your religion as long as it is done in the spirit of truth, and with the true intent of gaining understanding, as it has been said before truth will out. those with nothing to fear, should not fear interrogation. I have questions, it can't be wrong to want answers.

2009-12-22T19:24:00.000-08:00

something wanted something stolen something written cant be broken

laws are laws and rules are rules but something new is overdue

tear the walls down break the windows Molotov cocktails at the gates

no one watches no one cares, their scared to see and scared to care

revolution is never nice, its cold, its sad, but not unwise

power is given by power being taken, the old are deaf the new are green

and most will choose an older sin, but many fall to raze it all

not all men have spotless motives, there is corruption on both sides

a broken home makes broken men, and men who know too little

too many homes are missing parts, missing heart

this may not be the best course of action

but action is needed and too many suffer in silence

iLove

2009-11-29T21:19:00.000-08:00

Oh how I love you so...my beloved iPhone
I'll never know how I lived without you
Your sliver frame of chrome...
customized ringtones
I'll never love another phone
Your mirror on the back...
good for a quick booger check
Indeed
there is nothing that you lack

I have just found out that using Winamp I can remote access all of my files on my work and home computers from my iphone. I am truly in love, seduced by technology and all its seethy niftyness.

!!!!

2009-11-10T21:38:00.000-08:00

so... first off I would like to announce the TWO newest members of The Morrey Family... their names are Washer, and Dryer. They entered the world at a staggering price of $699, at exactly 1:03PM on tuesday the 10th of november. Then went right to work at the 5 foot pile of laundry that was happily awaiting their arrival.

Next item on the agenda, for those of you who did not know. we are also expecting a much more awesome addition to The Morrey Family come May 24th ... Anthony Lavon Morrey

that is all the conversation I have for today... i will leave again with some pictures. This, is what happens when Cathrine leaves me alone at her work.

so one sunday I decided that we needed to drive 70 miles through the middle of the desert to get to a place that has absolutly no reedeeming qualities except.. that you can drive as fast as you want... with no real consiquenses (unless of course you take a sharp turn) as you can see it was very exciting...

It's funny to me... It felt like we were going much much faster than 90mph... I think this picture might have been taken as we were slowing down.

Er... a day off? what's that?

2009-10-27T10:59:00.000-07:00

so ... I havn't had a day to myself for months... its almost frightening.. I keep waiting for my boss to call me and change her mind about giving me a day off.. I have so many things to do today... no idea why im blogging... .. but at least I should give you all an update on life as it has been since my last update. we've moved back to magna. we live in ann youngburgs old house (one of the houses on 8000 W, those ones with the hudge backyards..) its awesome. my father-in-law has a riding lawnmower he was going to let me use today but it snowed >:( not so happy about that... I guess I'll have to do laundrey or something. well I dont have much time to stick around and chat so I'll sum up with some pictures

Firstly, My wife...... aint she sweet?

Second, my once beautiful mane of hair, cat made me cut it all off. :( It looked much cooler when it wasn't all combed out like that... it just looks poofy in this picture

and finally, another photoshop projgect, this weeks tutorial was "screening", looks nice eh?

ode to the Olympus - Stylus Tough 12-Megapixel Digital Camera

2009-08-24T15:33:00.000-07:00

This fancy little camera is waterproof, shockproof, crushproof, and freezeproof, plus it's 12MP to boot. techinically the statment I made the "I" have a new camera is not correct. I acctually purchased this camera for my wife for her birthday. But what's hers is mine, and whats mine is... well.... also mine. This camera came with a $379 pricetag and for what it is thats a pretty average price. not too bad...
here are some pictures of it.. obviously I didnt take them since they are pictures of the camera... they are the stock photos from bestbuys website.

URGENT News Update... Im not dead!!

2009-08-22T17:30:00.000-07:00

Life, is a grand thing. My ward temple day was this morning. We were to be there at 7am (true to my fashion we arrived 15 minutes late), but that did not stop us from having a very calming morning at the temple. When we finished with the ordinence we decided to go out to the temple grounds and take some pictures. Apperently saturdays in august are the best time to get married. We had to pry our way around all of the couples that were having their pictures taken ... but I did manage to get in a few good ones (which I have included here for your veiwing pleasure) you mat notice the unrealisticness of some of the pictures ... I have recently aquired a "free" copy of photoshop CS2... (more information on that is available on request... ) and I have learned a few new tricks for ageing pictures. I will try to update more often now that I have a camera again. Peace out yall.

The art of the night shift

2009-06-05T09:31:00.000-07:00

So for the past few weeks I have been working two jobs, I am a moonlight security guard. It's really really boring. I stare at a fence for several hours at a time to make sure no one breaks in. No one has ever even tried.. the owners are just really paraniod and apparently have the extra 100 bucks a day to give me for doing nothing. Since it is so boring I have been in the habbit of bringing my laptopn with me... and I have also recently accuired a "copy" of Photoshop CS2.. the end result is the pictures that follow.

For fear of normallity...

2009-04-29T16:03:00.000-07:00

What is so wrong with apathy? I don't want to start out sounding like a philosophy thesis but I believe that before I get to the meat and potatoes of this post that I need to properly state the grounds on which my opinion is based... two of my favorite google answers to this question are first "the trait of lacking enthusiasm for or interest in things generally ," and second "an absence of emotion or enthusiasm," first I suppose the question should be asked if emotion is required or simply desired. can a person do anything justice without feeling any emotion to the task at hand? More to the point is it possible to love someone and not be excited to be around them? I for one don't think so. I'm told that love is more of a feeling than a verb. How false this statement is. Love is definitely a feeling but not a feeling alone. Love is also a verb. Love is chicken soup when you're sick. Love is watching a movie you didn't want to see. Love is daisies when when I miss you, love is staying home all day just to be with each other. love is so much more than just a feeling.

2009-04-25T15:07:00.001-07:00

Sorry for the rubbish posts i'm trying to make mobile blogger work. Just be patient i'll do a real post when i figure it out

2009-04-25T14:55:00.001-07:00

Test

2009-04-25T13:10:00.001-07:00

This is a test of the emergency broadcast system.

WHERE YOU AT??

2009-02-13T07:43:00.001-08:00

Create your own visitor map!

A brighter future for us all.

2009-02-04T12:20:00.000-08:00

When change occurs it scares you... it is often unwelcomed and frequently bad. But not all change is bad. Once in a while something changes for the better. When such a change happens it is always blind. It is an un-written law of nature that all good things ane given in accordance with our faith. It make sense to conclude that it is not nearly enough to just avoid bad behavior if you expect good things to happen to you... for good to come to you you must first bring good to someone else.

Part 2 (which really should have been part 1 because its more of an overview and less specific)

2008-12-13T10:22:00.000-08:00

The Cardinal Rule of being a groom is this: Stay the frick out of the way. Be interested, but not TOO interested. Convince her that you're excited about the wedding, but give her space to do her thing. Essentially your bride's entire life has been spent dreaming about and planning this one day, and before you even popped the question she knew that she wanted green bridesmaids' dresses and a bouquet of white roses. I'm not even kidding either. While you were off daydreaming as a kid about making the diving catch in the end zone and wining the Super Bowl, she was trying to figure out whether she wanted fairy princesses or white unicorn ponies to act as flower girls at her wedding. Any attempt by you to get in the way is going to throw a wrench in her plans, so just stay out of it. You are an accessory, not an integral part of the wedding. YOU are replaceable, black pocket-fold invitation envelopes and monogrammed custom-made table runners are not.
However, a delicate balance must be maintained. If you get TOO hands-off in your wedding planning duties, you will be accused of "not giving a crap about the wedding". This is EVEN WORSE than trying to help and inevitably screwing something up, because when you're messing everything up you're at least making an honest (if not insanely incompetent) effort. If you don't give a crap, it makes her seriously wonder why she decided to marry you, since any rejection of the wedding or anything it entails directly translates into a personal rejection of her. You don't care about the guestbook? Well screw you then. She'll find someone who does.

Wedding Prep 1010

2008-11-18T14:13:00.000-08:00

I have decided to make a few posts that will prepare any un-married of my friends that still read my blog for what lies ahead of them..
Here's a brief insight as to what the initial phases of your wedding planning is going to be like - you're going to be looking at a lot of stuff like the two swatches below and you wil be asked which one you like better:

If you can use actual words to describe the difference between these two colors, then you're either a woman or you're the kind of guy that can only legally get married in the Commonwealth of Massachusetts.

Any attempt to differentiate between red, bright red, blood red, scarlet, crimson, vermillion, cherry, burgundy, cardinal, black magic, garnet, fire engine, cerise, rust, blush, rouge, wine, brick, maroon, cranberry and carmine will only result in complete and total failure and is essentially an exercise in making you want to kill yourself in a violent and horrible way with some sort of gardening implement. My advice to you is to save yourself the trouble. The "correct" answer when presented with an aesthetic color choice like the example I've provided is just to say, "I don't know honey, which one do YOU like better?" (Note: This is the correct answer for most wedding-related questions). This will make your bride feel like you trust her decision implicitly and have faith in her abilities, which will boost her confidence and hopefully empower her to make this seemingly-inconsequential decision unilaterally. In the more-often-than-not case that she sees through your crap and calls you on it, simply admit that you cannot tell the two colors apart and hang your head in shame while she expresses her incredulity at your imperceptiveness, accuses you of not giving a crap about your wedding, and then spends six minutes explaining the exact definition of the term "redder". She will potentially then ask you yet again which shade you like better. In situations like this, I generally choose the farthest one to the left, whatever that may be.

FEE FI FO FUM!!!

2008-11-04T13:25:00.000-08:00

So it finally happened today.. has anyone ever wondered what happiness if the drive through tubes at the bank stop working??? what if you put all your money in the transit capsule of death ... write you account number on it and then it gets stuck somewhere in the magical land of the vacuum? where does it go between the time that it leaves your car and pops into the hand of the bank teller of death?? does it simply traverse through a massive tube system that goes underground and if so how come it takes so long to go a whole 10 feet? could it be possible that there is a troll hiding under the ground stealing all of our riches??!?!?!?? I think that its a likely explanation... in any event.. the stupid troll did EVENTUALLY give the money to the teller (10 minutes later I might add after the teller and I had played the "well where did it go then?" game more times than I thought was necessary)... who knows if the troll took some of it or not... (you know those troll types) I bet he did... but there is obviously not going to be any convincing the teller of that fact..

common knoledge

2008-10-23T13:37:00.000-07:00

everyone has a pre-conceived answer to what they feel is a moral issue. while this is a good thing I do not think that it is wise to determine that everything in life is black and white.. there is a grey space in between. at times its hard to tell when the grey becomes black and at times you might think you are well within your own limits when suddenly the ref call offsides. The point that I am trying to make is that every person will make what they are told is a mistake and it is human nature to want to feel bad or to regret such a thing.
what if I were to tell you that there is no right or wrong decisions? don't take me for an atheist.. I'm certainly not.. rather let me explain, where are you in your life right now? are you happy? are you lonely? are you in a state of contentment? that state of being is exactly where you deserve to be. you have made choices that have let you to this point some of them were well conceived decisions and some of them seemingly just happened to you. I'll tell you right now that nothing happens to anyone... every person brings upon themselves the events in their life. lets put into play a real life situation... a friend of yours is going through relationship problems.. you are his only friend so he tells you about it.. every day. you start to see the world through his eyes and are lest trusting of women and relationships in general.. this attitude starts to show eventually and your girlfriend notices.. she not knowing the situation begins to think that you are growing apart or maybe that you don't love her anymore. as untrue as all of this is it doesn't stop her from thinking it, additionally you don't trust her enough to have a deep talk with her. so she finds a different guy who is open and who understands her. and she leaves you for him because you are emotionally closed off. you first response is "why did this happen to me.. ?" well it didn't.. you wanted it to happen so it did ... but it didn't just happen to you without provocation.. you allowed yourself to become someone you are not because your friend was having a hard time. you changed.. you became a different person, going forward you will have a better understanding and greater appreciation for what you already have and will be a happier person for it.. therefore... you being selfish and cold was not a wrong decision it was just a choice that you made that had consequences however it has got you to where you are now and you could not have been there without it. you are happier because you made a decision. there is a constant pattern here that we would be well to observe.
pain is a hallway that has two doors... one leads to bitterness and the other leads to happiness.. if you choose bitterness you will end up back in the hallway, many will live their whole life in bitterness and pain, these people are truly insane.. if you think I'm insensitive look up the definition of insane "Insanity: Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results - Albert Einstein"... the conclusion that I am trying to draw is that there are no right and wrong decisions... there are decisions that lead to pain and bitterness and there are decisions that lead to happiness.. the latter is not wrong.. the former is not right.. its is simply the way a person chooses to live their life. whether they know it or not people who live in the hallway have chosen to be there whether through omission or through insanity.. they deserve to be there until they decide to leave.

The English Patient

2008-09-26T21:45:00.000-07:00

I have not read a book so compelling... so gripping since Crime and punishment... I truly believe that this book has changed the way that I think a little.. this book is a mystical web of dreams. Shocking.. spellbinding.. and at times uncomfortable in its accusations against humanity... the book makes one wish to be- as the main character put it (who I can not tell you the name of because he remains nameless for most of the book... with good purpose)- an international bastard ( I mean that not in the cussing sense of the word but in the actual meaning) I will give you some intro to the book (just a few of my favorite passages) perhaps to invoke the curiosity that struck me upon browsing through it briefly at the library 2 days ago...

she entered a story knowing she would emerge from it feeling she had been immersed in the lives of others, in plots that stretched back twenty years, her body full of sentences and moments as if awakening from sleep with a heaviness caused by unremembered dreams

her father had taught her about hands, About a dog's paws. whenever her father was alone with a dog in the house he would lean over and smell the skin at the base of his paw this he would say as if coming away from a brandy snifter is the greatest smell in the world a bouquet great rumours of travel she would pretend disgust but the dog's paw was a wonder the smell of it never suggested dirt it's a cathedral her father had said, so-and-so's garden that Field of grass a walk through the cyclamen a concentration of hints of all the paths the animal had taken during the day
I believe this. when we meet those we fall in love with there is an aspect of our spirit that is historian, a bit of a pedant, who imagines or remembers a meeting when the other had passed by innocently, just as Clifton might have opened a car door for you a year earlier and ignored the fate of his life. but all parts of the body must be ready for the other, all atoms must jump in one direction for desire to occur

FYI... I read I just don't update

2008-09-25T07:44:00.000-07:00

8 Things I am Passionate About:

My new family (Cathrine)

My old friends

My country

The Gospel of Happiness

MUSIC!!

My Garden

Anything old school (Frank Sinatra, chivalry, Victorian homes etc.)

Antiques (the hunting for and collecting of...)

8 Words or Phrases I Say Often:

Frick

"well crap..."

shoulda woulda coulda ... didn't

ige (ex: shoe-ige, or suck-ige)

"I'll break your face!!!"

Shut up

what? (Just in general.. I never know whats going on... )

I hate you! (I don't really ... it means I love you coming from me)

8 Things I want to do before I Die:

Go sky diving

Join the Navy

Go on a mission

Climb Mt Everest

graduate college... uhg

Meet the president

Open a pizza parlor

Run for Governor

8 Things I Have Learned From my Past:

Pain is weakness leaving the body.

Life is easy... like nailing Jello to a tree.

Women are complicated

Love is VERY complicated

numbers 3 and 4 ... are worth the effort

Good always wins

Just because something isn't true, doesn't mean you can't believe it.

You can be bitter.. or you can be better

8 Places I Would Love to Go or See:

China

India

Denmark

England

Egypt

Rome

Jerusalem

Russia

8 Things I Currently Need or Want:

The PIN number to my new ATM card... I lost/ forgot it..

A prime rib sandwich (I'm addicted to Quiznos)

Cathrine

MORE CUSTOMERS!!! (I've had the doors open for an hour and have not helped even one person....)

more money... (never hurts)

some new jeans

My check stub

An America First Credit Union In Tooele (thats where I work)

8 people I tag

Cathrine... who I doubt reads my blog anymore. ummm Edith, Duane, and susie.. and YOU!!! whoever you are... you know.

Video games

2008-07-19T16:57:00.001-07:00

My thoughts on the media...(the water is deeper than you think)

2008-07-18T21:22:00.000-07:00

With Great mustache comes great responsibility...

2008-07-09T17:33:00.000-07:00

Let me introduce you to Malachi... an observer--first let me explain.. I have classified people into to four groups.. Instructors, do-ers, followers, and observers.. the do-ers are obvious.. they have most of the ambition but lack the leadership skills to be an instructor.. instructors had plenty of ambition but are now elevated above do-ing because they did very well at one time and someone noticed. That or they did someone very well at one time.. that's a different story. Followers are also obvious because they are following... either a doer or an instructor... either way they are 80% of the people in the world they do things just like the do-ers but they lack the originality and ambition to be called a do-er.. now observers... they are a confusing sort.. in a way they have the leadership skills to become a very good instructor, they have the adaptability to blend in as a follower (if they wish) they would almost be mistaken for an instructor or a do-er if someone were to observe them closely... but they choose to stay out of the line of sight. They have watched the ladder and know how it works.. they could use it to their advantage but choose not to because they either feel they are above it OR they lack the self confidence to climb.. They know much more about you then you might have wanted them to but don't be afraid.. they wont tell.. to motive an observer into a do-er would be a great task and is not accomplished often but is worth the effort for both them and those responsible for helping them.-- ok.. now that you have had your educational seminar on work habits... let me refocus on the original story.. Malachi... a 7 year old kid who doesn't talk much... my step-nephew... sort of, how he is related is a long story but I have chosen to call him my nephew out of convenience. Im minding my own... playing Atomic Bomberman with my headphones in when he comes up beside me watching the screen intently... I didnt notice him until I turned my head and he was already there... I know he is only 7 but holy frick... PERSONAL SPACE!! that is my pet peeve (even though I don't like to use that expression) I have a bubble.. I have what you might call humaphobia ( the fear-- more intolerance-- of un-invited contact with other humans) Malachi is however not the worst offender so I should cut him some slack.. but my mother.... uhhhhg!... personal enemy number one (in this sense, I don't hate my mom guys, get off my frickin back!!).. her hands are always cold and clammy too.. to top it off... she whispers , ok not really whispering... more like speaking loudly in a whispy manner.. she does this into your ear while holding you by the arm EVERY TIME SHE NEEDS TO TALK TO YOU!! its never anything that needed to be kept a secret either.. not that it would have been everyone can hear her in spite of how much she thinks she is being discreet by "whispering".. I've lost sight of the point I once had to this post.. I hope I hit it...

You know what charm is? Its a way of getting a Yes without having asked a clear question.

2008-07-08T19:30:00.000-07:00

I hate living at home... have I mentioned that? for real.. If I want to leave my fan on all day to keep my room from getting too hot that is my own darn business! dang it. and another thing.. I never eat at home.. I'm home maybe 2 hours a day and I am asked to pay for groceries... Grrr!! So glad I'm going to Boot camp in two months.

Home-Pro made Pizza

2008-06-26T15:41:00.000-07:00

My brother-in-law Nathan makes some frickin amazing pizza.. I myself (even as good of a cook as I am) can not rival his Pizza making skills! he is in fact going into the catering business. so here's the plug. "Nathans Pizza" a home based catering service that makes mostly Pizza but also several other yummys. serving only the Salt Lake valley FOR NOW... but I'm sure for a large order he would concider the other parts of the SLC Metro area... but then again Im not his marketing director so you had better ask him first. Pizza is intended for large groups and must be ordered at leas 24 hours in advance but a single pizza can also be ordered!! alright that's my plug here's the link http://nathanspizza.bravehost.com/ordering.html

Insightful wisdom from a wise old friend...

2008-06-25T21:28:00.000-07:00

Maybe its time to JUST DO IT. No more talking about it, no more blogging about it. Decide what it is that you WANT and DO IT.

I have a friend, who has always given good advice, and one whos opinion I have always taken personally. the words you see above are not my own... that are that of this friend .. when given at first I confess I was offended. But as these stories often go I have come to see the importance of these words.. Since my post "where are they now" I have not blogged often.. not much at all.. I have not told people about the choices I have made until after they are done... and I have started going back to church... now... I'll admit that the latter can be attributed mostly to a devoted and slightly invasive elders quorum president but was sparked by my new found disgust for where my life was headed.. Like the words of Elizabeth to Mr. Darcey " You know not, you can scarcely conceive, how they have tortured me..."

With this in mind... there are a few things that I feel I am ready to make public just in case you haven't figured or heard yet..

I have joined the Navy. The contract is signed and it would take a jail sentence to get out of it. And no Toni... I'm not going to be a SEAL.. I've grown out of that phase... I am however going to be in special forces... just not that one

I AM GETTING MARRIED!!! I have told Joe and Michelle only because it was necessary ... but its not like you all haven't figured it out anyway.. and yes It's Cathrine... Don't anyone dare tell her I've told you already... she would be upset due to the fact that I swore her to secrecy until I buy a ring.

I haven't cut my hair since October... OK that didn't really belong here but its an accomplishment that I am supremely proud of. and it looks awesome. It comes down past my nose which you all know is un-naturally (Jewish..ish) big to begin with.

Mel Brooks has a big nose too so it's OK... I have decided..

So does Karly Spencer (that skanky but kinda pretty girl from high school... )

OK that's it.. thank you again my insightful friend..

goodnight, good luck

2008-06-10T21:37:00.000-07:00

there are several times throughout my day that I would like to just burst out and smack somebody..... its not always the same person just at moments of peak idiocy I want to smack the person the anti-intelligence is comming from.... I'll relate the following story as an example of stupid human behavior that I encounter nearly every day; Im sitting at the bus stop in front of the trax waiting for my bus of course when a train that clearly says on the sign "out of service" slowly makes its way to the station but is also clearly not stopping when I hear from behind me a commotion.. I turn to see a group of old women -and close behind im assuming their husbands- hobbling after the train waiving their hands at the train as if to signal him that he forgot to stop at the station.. so of course in an effort to make them sit down and shut up the driver turns on his intercom and loudly says" this train is not in service!!!" then the driver brings the train to a stop.. I can only assume to keep the idiots from hurting themselves.. and they angrily start pushing the buttons on the doors which are of course not opening... so the driver says again "this train is not in service" when one of the old bats yells " then why is it stopped!!"

...I guess she told him

Just to prove that I still have a computer

2008-05-13T21:04:00.000-07:00

3 joys:
1. Cathrine.. (that was an "awwww" moment... Yes I can hear you)
2. Fresh vegtables
3. The sultrey smell of Laundry detergent

3 fears
1. Spiders
2. ummm Spiders...
3. Becoming the male version of my mother

3 goals
1. loose 30 pounds before boot camp
2. be able to do more than 1 push up.... before boot camp..
3. be temple worthy... hopefully before boot camp... maybe not..

3 current obsessions/collections
1. Obsession= Cathrine
2. Collection= Sugar packets from All night Diners
3. Collection= camping stuff

3 random surprising facts about yourself
1. I don't like myself... at all..... (it's sad but im working on it)
2. No one has ever suprised me... I study people and am more observant than I let on sometimes
3. I know sign language.... somtimes I wish I was deaf so I didnt have to talk at all..

Where are they now??

2008-01-12T18:35:00.000-08:00

Maybe it was time? maybe its was fate, likely its just a little dumb luck..

All of us have changed so much in three years. in about a month it will have been three years since I found friends who mattered to me. Joe, Becca, Toni, and Michelle. In only that time Toni has been married, with child and divorced, Becca has been to and from a mission, Michelle has changed completely, and Joe has changed teams. I on the other hand have done nothing new, haven't been to school yet, I've had 7 jobs in the past three years, gained 38 pounds, Also ... I'm a boomerang kid... (I live at home now for those of you who did not know) . I'm not whining I don't want your sympathy, but I am writing this in hope that by the time I'm through I will have sorted out a few things. It.. therapy you could say, My own little psychiatric evaluation of myself. and since I'm sure no one reads this anymore I'm safe to say what ever I feel like saying with out fear of repercussions. I'm not really happy with the man that I have become, and I am not important to anyone... why is that? is it my detachment from life in general that has caused me to be alienated from everyone I one thought I knew. or is it self loathing and a serious inefficient from of self destruction? the only thing I really think about lately is what I could be. and how I could have been had my situation been different. its certainly a destructive pattern in my failed attempts to figure myself out I have become vauge and void of feeling. and now I'm more alone than ever. something must be done to change the path that I am on. obviously nothing I have done before has worked so I will try somthing new. ..... so the solution is do do exactly the opposet of what I would normally do.

nomad of dreams

2007-10-17T19:45:00.000-07:00

If I had wings I would not use them
of that one thing I am sure

its not that I don’t long to fly- like the dreamers and poets before me

its not that I fear the experience ,
although, i do have an aversion to heights
My reason is this, simple and clear;
every creature that flys must eventually land

I do not wish to fly with restrictions I long to be a creature of the sky

unbounded,
unchained,
eternally liberated by flight
a nomad of dreams

thoughtless

2007-10-05T21:59:00.000-07:00

entangled,
thoughtless peering ...
into the dark,

at once
an awakening;
there is no escape

It soon would consume her but how?

"Is it with force that the deamon will overtake me?

Or by terror,
by fear?"
not fear of death
or at least not of mortal form
but of love,
the face of the deamon is love it's self...

the tarnished, weathered soul grows colder;
each passing.

into the darkness she stares
her eyes can preceive what lies within
but she is unaware...

she sees what bright eyed innocence is blind to
but she is unaware...

like a feline creature she absorbs the darkness
and thrives

is not to be loved
can not love
she is love,
an uncertianty

2007-08-03T08:20:00.000-07:00

"The road to happiness lies in two simple principles; find what interests you and that you can do well, and put your whole soul into it - every bit of energy and ambition and natural ability you have." – John D. Rockefeller

These words speak boldly to me. For as many times as I have searched I have not found such a thing. I wonder can it be possible? how is it that everyone around me seems to be so happy? I've been taught to believe there is a light at the end of every dark lonely tunnel. But its a lie. The only light at the end of the tunnel is the headlights on the Mack truck thats about to run you over.

you can meet as his location but you better come with cash...

2007-07-21T08:54:00.000-07:00

it would seem to me that there is more to life than what most of us think. Not to proclaim myself a visionary but I don't buy in to the everyday charade we play. In the morning we get up, say our prayers read our scriptures brush our teeth and go to work. While I agree with wholesome living I think there is more to it. We can choose to live. day in and day out. simply living is not an option, there is somthing bigger. there are people in our world, people who are not able to live day to day. there are people who are void of the small comforts we take for granted. god instructed that we are to first seek the kingdom of god before riches then blessing will follow. how many of us really could spare some change when we pass someone on the street who is down on his luck? why then do you not share the abundence that was given to you. so he might buy beer with it. who are you to tell him how to live his life, if your not going to give him money the least you could do is treat him like a real person. Who really is the bigger fool the man asking for money or the seemingly good person who just lied TO A MAN WHO HAS NOTHING about the $1.50 in their pocket God has given us the power to do anything.. littereally we are capable of anything we want to do if we can just have enough faith in him and in ourselves. why would you want to waste all that power on getting up everyday and simply going through the motions. we can do so much more, so much more.

the greatest thing we'll ever learn is just... to love, and be loved in return

2007-07-08T19:37:00.000-07:00

Love is the thing that will break or take us. It is the greatest and most fear instilling power to captivate. I must say I dont understand the way that it works. too many times I have thought that I knew what it was. I thought that someone loved me once. but I have come to realize that she can not. that I am not capible of reciving such an awe inspiring power. In a way it is liberating to know that I am not bound by the obligations that go along with love and commitment but. what I wouldnt give to be so obligated if only someone would recipicate those feelings to me. I fear perhaps that I am not capable of love.

This is not the end, this is not the begining of the end, it is the end of the begining.

2007-07-05T20:48:00.000-07:00

As far as I knew It didnt matter entirely (though partially) how you got to where you were going as long as you end up in the right place. Feel free to correct me if I am wrong. If there is one thing that I know its that I dont have to be a main stream lemming to get what I want out of life. there are far more liberating paths I have chosen to take. Some by default some by blatent, willful disreguard for the general populus whos only desire is to fit in. To be just like everyone else. I choose life. I choose to live my life. I am the best person I know how to be. I will do, and have done the best that I am able. That in its self is enough for me. I will concede that the biggest room in the world is the room for improvment, don't get me wrong Im no saint, Im mearly a revolutionary, a free thinker of sorts. I follow my own rules and blaze my own trail through the rough terrain of life. I am undaunted by uncharted wilderness, I have within me a gift bestowed from God to know right from wrong. I can choose for myself what I must do. I am free, we are free.